Rabu, 08 Desember 2010

Yeahright

I know, I have changed. A lot.
I'm all gloomy and easily upset. I know.
I'm blaming the world because it's being unfair. When actualy it's never fair.
I'm starting to close my heart. Only because I don't want to get anymore heartbreak.
I'm blaming others, when It's actually myself is the one to be blamed on.
I'm turning into an evil. Haha. Yeahright.
Negative thoughts are all over me and it's contorolling me.

You know, I have tried.
To be what I called the old me.
But everytime I tried, something got a hold on me.
I couldn't even finish trying.

I'm helpless. I'm hopeless. I'm restless.
Sometimes I wonder... What's the meaning of life if it keeps on going this way?
Okay stop. I'm turning into an emo girl who wants to do a suicide. Oh hell suicide.

Bring me back the old times :|

Jumat, 03 Desember 2010

It's just getting worst and worst

I may be not the bestest of friend but hey, i do deserve a better respect, don't I?
I did everything I could to help you and this is what you give me in return?
Don't you realize you took almost.... EVERYTHING? Literally almost everything.
I don't mean to hate you or things like that but I couldn't help being nice if you keep on messing with the life that I've been living for these 16 years.

I'm sorry, buddy.

Rabu, 01 Desember 2010

The movie thingy

bytheway.....

I miss our movie-after-exam tradition thingy. Because apparently, we don't have it here in high s(ucks)chool.

Could we do that again, some other time... maybe?

1st day of the last month

1st day of december = last day of semester exam! Ahaaa you can't believe how happy i am. Finally.... I AM FREE! Okay, not quite. I'm still worried about the remedials. Sundanesse and religion! Huh hah I hope I get enough score to pass on that two subject. I feel so dumb. Usually I don't get very nervous about that two subjects but unexpectedly the teachers have been increasing the difficulty level or.... is it me who didn't study? Kidding. Sure I studied, but not seriously :p

Well, let's just hope and pray!
Huh hah bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Welcoming the holiday with an open heart ;)

Senin, 22 November 2010

See you next year, dear 11!




I knooooow this is a real delay but still.... I AM NO LONGER A FIFTEEN YEARS OLD GIRL. I'M SIXTEEN FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! SIXTEEN!

I've been trough a lot in this past 1 year. Fifteen had
been a really rough age and I believe being a sixteen years old girl would be much more than that.

Oh did I told you that I got a surprise 'party' from my loved on
es? YAYAYA! That day, 11 November 2010, It was afternoon and they came to my house pouring me with plastics of flour and water. They brought a strawberry cheese cake with candles on top of it, and DO NOT forget the present. It wasn't much but they were so sweet, I wanna cry :')

Look! I got to make a wish and blow the candles :3

He got the honour to have the first cake

Thankyou for all wishes, presents, and the surprise.
Special thanks to these people:


I'm gonna post the presents I got for my birthday, SOON!

Can't thankyou enough,
Just-turned-sixteen girl :*

Rabu, 27 Oktober 2010

Happy 13th, my miracle

Thankyou for supporting me
Thankyou for the lessons you've given me
Thankyou for making me cry
Thankyou for making me laugh
Thankyou for being all sweet and gentle
Thankyou for giving me this feeling
Thankyou for giving me your shoulder to cry on
Thankyou for giving me a place to lean on
Thankyou for being with me in these past 13 months
Thankyou for all things you've done, you've done so much that i can't say them one by one
And the most important of all.....
Thankyou for giving me a chance to love you, and to be loved by you.
That's the most amazing thing you've given to me.

Don't ever forget that I LOVE YOU :)

Senin, 25 Oktober 2010

Bukan hal yang mudah

Belakangan ini semua berubah.
Aku tahu pasti hal ini akan terjadi. Banyak orang telah memperingatkanku. Tapi aku lengah. Aku tak cukup mempersiapkan diri.
Aku lupa, mereka bilang perubahan akan sangat sulit. Mereka bilang perubahan akan sangat menyakitkan. Mereka bilang perubahan membuat kita sulit untuk menentukan siapa yang harus kita percaya.
Tapi aku bukan pengecut. Aku harus berusaha untuk menyesuaikan diri, aku harus berusaha untuk beradaptasi agar aku bisa bertahan.
Sekarang, bagaimana caraku menyesuaikan diri jika semuanya terus berubah?
Dari pertanyaan itulah kemudian muncul pertanyaan baru yang sudah sejak tadi menggayuti benakku:

"Kalau semua berubah, haruskah aku ikut berubah?"

Minggu, 17 Oktober 2010

You are miss-able

"All I want is some times alone.
I don't like being in the crowd.
Just the two of us, in a silence, doing nothing."
- Adam P. Laksana

Well, just so you know; I want the same thing as you do boy, I MISS YOU A LOT :')

Selasa, 05 Oktober 2010

This isn't my world no more

What a fool of me, thinking that senior high would be just like the junior high. The fact is senior high is a whole new different world.
People are changing. I am changing.
I don't know which way to follow. I don't know who should i become friends with. I don't know who's wrong, or who's right.
Now I really need a place. A place where I can feel safe. A place where the people are staying. No changes. No goodbyes.
I'm thinking about going into your arms. Because they have always been my safest place, a place that I always run to whenever something bad happens. But even your arms are not that safe anymore.
Then i'm thinking about my heart. It's my private section, where i can do whatever i wanted to do. But oh well, I'm having a battle with my heart right now. How can I feel safe if I decided to go there?
So where else must I go? Could anyone help me?
I lost in my world, and I think the world isn't mine anymore.

Need. A. Great. Big. Hug. Please?
Just like the barney song....

Minggu, 03 Oktober 2010

Something sweet for someone sweet


Happy birthday Adam Putra Laksana!

I know it's kinda late to post this on this blog, since his birthday was on 29th of sepember. But oh well, who cares?
So, this was my first time doing a surprise party and i was sooooooo major nervouse. But thank God it went well.
Thankyou for all of my beloved beautiful and handsome friends. And thankyou for Adam's mom and Adam's sister. You were such a great actors, TWO THUMBS UP (Y)(Y)

So baby, how was the present? how was the cake? how was the surprise? ;)

Happy sixteen you, I Love You. Don't forget :)

Minggu, 26 September 2010

Lets make it year(s)

"One year is not enough, lets make it years!"

HAPPY 1st YEAR ANNIVERSARY!
It feels exactly like last year. The love, the excitment, and all.
"Every spent with you is the moment I treasure"
Thankyou for being with me.

You're the best I've ever had, so far. And I hope you will always be.

Wish us luck.
God bless 27.
I. (Love). You.

Jumat, 24 September 2010

We're not okay

Seconds to the big day and we're not even okay.
How can it be like this?
I know I'm making things bigger than it should, but I'm not the only one to blame here.
Is it too much to ask? Just to not fall asleep when we're in the middle of something serious? When I'm talking seriously. Tell me, is it too much?

Again, my hypersensitive mood is on now so whatch what you're doing.
I don't wanna start any drama, especially on times like this.
I need to be strong. I have to be strong. And I NEED YOU to be strong.
Please, just help me out here?
I'm hopeless, I'm helpless :'(

Senin, 20 September 2010

The permition and agreement

Nine days to go, seems long enough but actualy it is not.
Already talked to the house owner and she gave us permition to use the house and she also agreed to help me. Correction: US.
Ahaaaaa I can hardly wait!
What about you? ;)

Hope this is gonna work out reaaaaally well.
Amin.

Goodnight, sleeptight, I love you :*

I lied. I am sorry.

A little white lie won't hurt............


What am I kidding?
It's NOT LITTLE at all.
It's BIG. It's HUGE. It's SUPER.
And worst, It's a lie.


What am I gonna do?
Karma does exist.
God I'm so so so so so so sorry :(

Jumat, 10 September 2010

Happy Eid Mubarak

Assalamualaikum,
Minal aidzin ya semuanya. Maafin semua kesalahan kesalahan gue ya, yang disengaja maupun yang nggak. Ayo kita mulai lagi semua dari nol. Semoga semuanya jadi lebih baik lagi ya. Amin :)

Happy Eid Mubarak, you :)

Rabu, 08 September 2010

McDonald ft. Recoureveuns

4th of September
A great saturday night with my special ones
None other than RECOUREVEUNS

Too bad not all of them were coming. But overall that night was a blast. I had real fun with them. Oh how i miss being with them :'

I can't tell you how much i want us back together
As I've said, being with you is indiscribable
Lots of love, tons of kisses, bunch of hugs... only for you, friends :)

Kamis, 02 September 2010

3rd of september

Today is Friday, the 3rd of september.
I just finished my sahur and will get some quick sleep afterwards.
I'm just hoping that today would be my day.
I'm going to Bunderan HI with some of my extraculicular mates. We're gonna take some pictures of the road and buildings. My teacher said that we're planning to get the afterglow sky. He said the sky will look really blue. Just beautiful.
So i hope the rest of the day would be just fine. I really hope so.

I'm gonna sleep now folks,
Good morning, have a nice day,
Sleepwell ;)

Random thought

Apparently nothing's going any better.
And I'm starting to blame myself.
And I'm starting to think about random stuff.
This stuff is so random that I don't even believe that I'm thinking about it right now.
I really hope that i'm not that stupid to let this random thought come out of my head.

I'm clueless and helpless and hopeless

Rabu, 01 September 2010

Scorpio's biggest failure

"Jealousy is definitely scorpio's biggest and worst failure"

That statement is so true!
Hand's up for jealousy thingy. I can't handle that one.
Okay actually I'm still trying but so far i'm still not getting any better. Even just a little.
I'm a true scorpio, i guess :p

But lucky me I have my Libra guy who's always supporting me no matter how annoying i am.
Today i was in a major badmood that i won't talk to him. Ofcourse it was somehow connected with the 'J' thing. (read: jealousy)
Yes, I'm stupidly jealous over something that i should've not be jealous about (oh what am i talking? Oke intinya dengan bodohnya gue cemburu sama hal yg sebetulnya gak perlu dicemburuin)
Unfortunately, or should i say fortunately he realized something was wrong and decided to talk to me at the end of the school.
And there we were, talking. And there he was explaining things. And there I was, crying. And there he was calming me down.

OHMYGOD I'M SUCH A.......... I don't even know what should i call myself.

Thankyou for my little one, Agen Rahasia Si Kecil --> BONITA RACHEL SIMAMORA.
Thankyou for your 'positive thinking' advice.
And thanks to my Libra boy, I'm a lot better now.
Have i told you that 'you're the best i could ask for a lover?', there i already say it and i really mean it.

Thankyou thankyou thankyou thankyou,
Mr. Libra ;)

Selasa, 31 Agustus 2010

The plan

I got a very interesting plan in my head.
This plan is making me very excited. I've talked to Bonita and as always, she had the same thought as mine.
But this plan will cost me so much money, i have to decrease my spending from now or else this plan won't work exactly the way i want it to be.

OHMYGOD i freaking can't wait for this plan to work

Sleep well,
though that text message ruinned my mood,
I still love you



Sabtu, 28 Agustus 2010

Go find some other toys

Girl's heart is fragile and sensitive
That's why you cannot play with it
It needs gentle touch, and it needs to be taken care of
Once you play with it, it can easily break
And it never comes back as flawless as before

I'm sure you already knew that
So what is it with you?
Why are you still playing with it?
Quit fooling around, go find other things to be played with
Girl's heart doesn't need your bullshit promises

Go ahead dude, go find some other toys to play with

Jumat, 27 Agustus 2010

A real big fan of yours




HAPPY ELEVEN, MR. LAKSANA!
Wish us both a great-longlasting-relationship

Dear 11, you've been my favorite number for so long.
There are so many reasons why i like you.
Now, could you please give me one more reason to keep you as my favorite?
Be a great month, no silly fights, no tears wasted, no sad stories. Just be GREAT!

Being with you is indicribable,
How can i ask more? You're the best I've ever had so far. And hopefully you will always be.
I just love everything about you.

'Your biggest fan'

Rabu, 25 Agustus 2010

Don't mess with my nose

HEEEEELP, I CAN'T BREATH! Literally.

Gila, idung gue mampet semampet mampetnya mampet, hell banget ini. Alhasil gue napas pake mulut which is gaenak banget, dan malah jadi batuk-batuk. Ini semua garagara main ujan-ujanan sama si tukang ojek, jadi flu begini kan huh.

Tadi siang di sekolah malah lebih parah, badan gue anget dan sumpah rasanya gaenak banget. Tapi gue masih bisa pecicilan. Gue malah sibuk ngobrolin tentang orang-orang kaya sama eno (someday i will be as rich as you are. Amin) terus main-main sama si Dhendry dan Bram sama Malvin juga. Alhamdulillah waktu pulang panasnya udah mulai turun, terus kan Nchaa dateng tuh tadi, nah begitu Nchaa pulang gue udah gak panas lagi.

Jadi intinya sekarang gue udah gak panas, tapi idung gue banjir dan tersumbat. Gara-gara ini gue jadi gabisa konsen belajar ICT. Padahal besok ada test. Bayangkan! Dari 4 kisikisi yang dikasih gue baru belajar 1 doang. Hell banget flu.

I freakin' hate you, influenza. Go mess somebody else's nose, just NOT ME
Happy studying~

Selasa, 24 Agustus 2010

Would you stop causing bad endings?

One of so many things in the world that always makes me happy is the rain.
I love the smell, I love the sound, I love the way it looks when the water's falling from the sky to the ground.
But it has been twice in these two weeks, the rain caused such a bad ending of the day.
Why did you have to do that, dear rain?
I love you, but if you keep on causing bad ending like this, i won't love you no more.

Dear rain, please come down here and sing me a lullaby
Sleeptight, you :*

Senin, 23 Agustus 2010

My professor


"WE WERE BOTH YOUNG WHEN I FIRST SAW YOU"
He used to be called 'Little Mr. Professor' but I prefer calling him 'My Professor'

A good start

It's time for weektest!

I have a good news, I'm starting this week's weektest with a good score.
Today I had my math weektest, and I got 93! SAY YES FOR ME :)
Actually I could get 100 but these silly things prevent me from getting that perfect score.
I made mistake on number 1c, I didn't read the question correctly. And also on number 3a, I carelessly wrote the number 2 instead of 1. I should've got that number right. Too bad, I'm still regreting it.

Well, tomorrow is chemistry weektest. It's about 'Tabel Periodik Unsur' I've understand all of the materials and hopefully i can get a great score. Oh wait, with all the preparation, I determine that i can get that perfect 100 score.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Wish me luck, people!
Goodluck to me, and good luck to you :*

Kamis, 19 Agustus 2010

I can't resist

That silly-goofy smile of yours
The loud laughter you always show
The way you look me in the eyes
How you mess with my hair
The way you kiss the top of my head
The hillariously-romantic jokes you used to tell me
How you hold me tightly when you have to go home and i won't let you
Everything in you, have made me crazily in love with you

now, how can i resist you?

Rabu, 18 Agustus 2010

God, I'm in so much pain

"Gotta stay strong! Let no tears escape"
It's so easy to say those words but what's funny is that it's so hard to stay strong and prevent myself for crying.

Lately I've been crying a lot, I've been a very hyper sensitive girl.
I've never felt this uncomfortable before, I've never felt this way. It's torturing me, somebody help?

I can't say what's on my mind, I can't tell what's going on with me, I just can't talk. People would think this is a small problem, which i won't agree with that. To me, this is HUGE.

These are just too much, too much thoughts and too much pain, could somebody help me?

I still love you though,
the one who's always being there for me :')

Selasa, 17 Agustus 2010

Keep shining, dear Indonesia

Good evening!

Hoooaaahm i just finished my work for tomorrow's class-decorating competition. Man, it was a lot of works. I've been in my room for almost 6 hours just doing these things.
Now is 23.18, in less than 1 hour my bestfriend, Irena will have her 15th birthday. Gotta stay awake until midnight ;)

Bytheway HAPPY BIRTHDAY INDONESIA! Keep shining my dear country, i'm proud being a part of you, being an indonesian.
And........ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO RANI SALSABILA! All the greatest in life for you my girl. I MISS YOU!

Today we didn't study at school, we did a ceremony in order to celebrate Indonesia's 65th birthday. After the ceremony i stayed at school with some of my friends. A few hours later we felt very bored and we decided to watch a movie in the cinema. So there we went, to Bekasi Square and we whatched Expendables. AMAZING MOVIE I TELL YA, IT'S AWESOME! Thankyou for the movie Adam, Dwipa, Angga, and Tian :D

Oh no, i forgot to charge my Kennedy. His battery is almost out, poor him :p Okay, gotta go. I'll post more. I promise. Goodbye, and goodnight.

I proudly say that I'm an Indonesian,
I love Indonesia, and I love you ;)

Selasa, 10 Agustus 2010

Here comes the holy month

HAPPY FASTING!
Time flies in a full speed, i can't believe that tomorrow we're gonna start our fasting month. I'm sorry for all mistakes i've done. I hope all of our deeds in this fasting month will be receivable. Amin.

With a pure heart i say,
Goodluck and happy fasting, fellas :)

Jumat, 06 Agustus 2010

Unstable

I hate how fast my mood change. Once I'm feeling happy that i can't stop smiling and not long after that someone manage to ruin my mood and i'll be all gloomy and upset :(

I want to control my emotion, I don't wanna get mad easily
please please please go away, dear negative feelings

Not in the good mood because of silly conversation,
TPrayoga

Sabtu, 31 Juli 2010

To write and to share

"Happy birthday my dear blog, wish i have more time to share everything with you"

This is her 2nd birthday. Well actually it was supposed to be on 23th of july but i forgot. Sorry :p
I'm sooooooo happy with myself because i still keep on writing in this blog. As you see, I'm a girl who's often feeling bored with something. And what suprises me is that i managed to keep writing in here. UUUUUU YEAY FOR ME ;)


Stories are waiting for you to be read, so keep on track folks,
Share with you soon,

I (HEART) YOU :D

Jumat, 30 Juli 2010

Graduation night

Before gradution, (left to right) Darenth, Bulan, Adam, Trissi



After graduation with the certificate and the medallion

hellow-yellow everybody :D

Apakabar?
Gue Alhamdulillah dengan dada yang sangat lapang dan hati yang sangat ringan menyambut datangnya weekend ketiga setelah gue memasuki SMA yang tampaknya gak berenti memperpendek umur gue.

Nah, sekarang seperti yang telah gue janjikan, gue akan menceritakan sedikit saja tentang acara graduation gue. Eheee agak sedikit sangat amat terlambat ya? Tapi seperti orangorang bilang, better be late than never. And so here we go...

Jum'at, 21 Mei 2010 adalah hari yang super duper sibuk banget! Pagi pagi gue bangun dan melakukan kegiatan gue di pagi hari seperti biasa. Gue baru mandi jam 12 dan gue langsung caw ke tukang sepatu benerin heelsnya emak yang mau gue pake. Pulang dari benerin sepatu gue ke rumah buat ngambil kebaya, toga, dll dan langsung cabut ke rumah Adam karena berhubung gak ada yang bisa nyanggulin gue jadinya mamanya Adam mau bantuin mengurus segala hal yang berhubungan dengan graduation itu seperti sanggul dan makeup. Sampe di rumah Adam gue ditawarin mandi dulu, gue bilang aja udah, jadinya gue nungguin si tante mandi sambil ngobrolngobrol sama Adam. Segera setelah itu kita (gue dan sang mama adam) pergi ke salon deket rumahnya itu, abis disanggul yang simple banget (cuma dikepang kelabang terus digulung gitu deh) kita balik lagi ke rumah. Dan lo tau apa? Ada Darenth di rumah Adam. Okelah. Terus gue buruburu di makeup-in sama Kak Ara which turned out very good (thankyou kak!).

Selesai makeup, gue adam dan darenth pamitan dan segera melaju ke rumah gue karena Bulan udah ada di sana nungguin. Sampe di rumah gue si cowok cowok itu sholat dulu dan bulan kebelet pipis --"

10 menit sebelum jam 19.30 telpon rumah gue berbunyi dan ternyata itu adalah ellen yang minta ikutan nebeng ke horisson tempat acara graduation dilaksanakan. Lah gue bukannya gak boleh atau gimana tapi kan kita harusnya ngumpul jam setengah 7 karena acara mau dimulai jam 7 teng. Kalo nungguin Ellen dulu kapan berangkatnya? Jadilah akhirnya kita berangkat tanpa Ellen.

Sampe di horisson ternyata udah rame dan gue langsung degdegan. Tapi Alhamdulillah semua berjalan lancar dan kami semua LULUS 100%. Congratulations my Recoureveuns :)

Next post hopefully will be about Anyer with my 9Boom.
Stay tune!

Dam daradam dam dam, I LOVE YOU <3

Selasa, 27 Juli 2010

God bless, 27 ;)


HAPPY 10TH MONTHS ADAM PUTRA LAKSANA!
Wish us both a beautiful relationship with no silly fights.
You know i've loved you, i love you now, and i'll love you then.
Thankyou for the oh-so-amazing 10 months, you've been all that i can ask for a lover.

I love you, more more more than yesterday.
I love you much moooooooore than i can say.

Big heart,
Ms. Laksana :*

Senin, 19 Juli 2010

Give them back, please?

Hey baby, I'm new!
What's new?
I'm no longer a junior high student. I'm now a senior high school student, FOR REAL!

Okay, i know it's soooooooooo yesterday. I've been in the senior high for about a week now. This is my second week. I still feel not comfortable enough. I miss my junior high. I miss my Recoureveuns. A LOT :'(

Seminggu masuk gue sama sekali belom ngerasa betah. Gue masih ngerasa gue cuma numpang doang di gedung SMA. Tempat gue sebenernya di gedung SMP. Gue sedih banget kalo udah malem malem dan ngerasa kangen banget sama SMP. Apalagi kalo inget 9Boom4X gila gue pengen nangis banget.

Di SMA gue masuk kelas X-4. Maaf banget maaf tapi kalau menurut gue kelas gue ini garing banget kalau dibandingin sama 9Boom. Mungkin karena gue baru masuk aja kali ya. Tapi tetep aja sumpah gue gak betah banget. Gue pengen banget sekelas lagi sama 9Boom. Gue kangen kalian.

Gue pengen sehariiiiiiiiiiiii aja masuk sekolah bareng Recoureveuns.
Gue pengen sehariiiiiiiiiiiii aja belajar di kelas bareng 9Boom.
Gue pengen sehariiiiiiiiiiiii aja ngumpul lagi kayak dulu bareng vero, ellen, gege, nchaa, bulan, irena.
Gue pengen, pengen pengeeeeeeeeeeeen banget banget banget nggak bohong gue pengen banget. Gue kangen kalian :'(

Bring them back to me, please?
I love you all sooooooooooooo muchmuchmuchmuchmuch :')

Sabtu, 03 Juli 2010

You deserve it

Ehm mau curhat dong....

Masa gue kangen.
Sama? Adam Putra Laksana <3

Hadeh gue tau itu gombal sekali tapi gue serius ini gak tau kenapa.
Lost contact nggak. Ketemu baru hari Kamis kemarin. Dan hari Senin bakal ketemu lagi.
Gue tibatiba kangen nih huhuhu garagara abis liat foto farewell eke berdua doi.
Sialan nih fotonya --"

Eeeeh gue udah 9 bulan loh. Seneng banget gila ini yg terlama. Semoga langgeng ya, semoga happy ending, semoga gak bosen bosen, semoga gue gak gampang ngambek lagi. Pokoknya semoga baik baik aja ya. Amin amin amin amin banget ya Allah.

Yaampun gue mesti ngapain lagi ini gue kangennya amitamit aaaaa
Doi juga udah tidur lagi elah.
Harus apa sekarang?
Hahaha au ah ini gue jadi ribet sendiri. Tidur aja deh siapa tau ketemu di mimpi hahaha :p

Kisses and hugs for you who deserves it,
You know who you are ;)

Up Next

Haloha! Happy sunday everyone ;)

Wow i've been through a lot these past months. And you sure have missed reviews of my days.
So, in this post i wanna tell you about what you've missed.
I'm gonna make a list of what will i write on my next post to fulfill my missing moments.
I'm gonna arrange it base on the date.

1. Graduation Ceremony

2. Anyer with my special ones

3. Farewell Party

Stay tune, folks!

MUCH MORE love for the precious
Sleeptight :*

Selasa, 18 Mei 2010

Where's us? I miss us

We laugh and cry
We hug and smile
We talk and we share
We take millions of pictures
We sing and dance
We do crazy stuffs
We do it TOGETHER

Where's us?
Where's you? and where's me?
Where's my girls?

I miss youuuuuuu all.......
OH NO WAIT!
I MISS US....... UNTOLD :'(

Should i scream and say I LOVE YOU? :*

Jumat, 07 Mei 2010

I made it! We made it! CONGRATULATION!

Dengan bangga aku mau ngucapin SELAMAT BUAT SEMUA YANG LULUS YA!

Seneng banget, big congrats buat my Recoureveuns. SELAMAT! Kita udah berhasil nunjukin bahwa kita bisa lulus 100% sesuai yang diharapkan sama guruguru kita.

I wanna say thankyou to ALL, who have been supporting me all these times. You guys rock, I LOVE YOU! And also MAJOR thanks to my one and only saviour, my God. Without you I'm nothing.

Berapa NEM kalian?
Gue? Alhamdulillah 35,90
Gak sampe target sih, dan nyesek banget itu nilai kurang 0,1 lagi bisa sampe target gue, which is 36 or above 36

"Give your best shot and let God do the rest"
That's my motto :)

So, for those who are not satisfied with the result, be grateful, it is your work after all, you did your best and that's yours to be proud of. Remember, there will always be a next time. Keep in your mind, you will do better. Once again, CONGRATULATION ME, CONGRATULATION US :D

I'm so happy, oh WE MADE IT,
I love you, like.... A LOT :*

Kamis, 06 Mei 2010

Menegangkan

setengah jam lagi tanggal 7 yang berarti pengumuman kelulusan SMP bakal keluar.
Ohmygod gue degdegan
Ohmygod gue tegang
Ohmygod gue panik
Ohmygod gue gak tenang

Gue lulus nggak?
Nem gue bagus gak?
Recoureveuns lulus seratus persen gak?
Anak anak kelas 9 seindonesia lulus semua gak?

Semua itu yg dari tadi muter muter di kepala gue. Gue penasaran. Tapi gue takut. Tapi gue pengen banget tau. Ya Allah bisa gila tauga begini caranya. Timeline twitter pun hari ini ramai dengan topik seputar UN. Kompak ya kita! Hahaha

I wannasay a little prayer.
Bismillahirohmanirohim

"Ya Allah semoga Recoureveuns lulus 100%
semoga besok waktu pengumuman semua nangis bahagia karena lulus
semoga nem trissi di atas 36
Amin amin amin AMIN ya Allah...."

Wish me luck, wish us luck
I love you, even more :*

Minggu, 02 Mei 2010

I need a hug and the magic words

Another late-night post hhhh
Gue gak bisa tidur beneran deh. Ini garagara tadi gue tidur siang pasti.
Ah tapi rasanya gue tidur siang juga gak lamalama banget, cuman satu setengah jam kok.
Hmm tapi bukan itu yg mau gue permasalahkan.
Kalo cuman gak bisa tidur doang ya okeoke ajelah tapi yg ini tuh gaenak banget perasaan.
Sumpah bener bener gak enak. Gak ngerti kenapa. Kayak bakalam terjadi sesuatu yg buruk gitu deh. Gue gak suka banget perasaan kayak gini, gak nyaman banget, pengennya tidur aja.
Nyesek woy!
Please banget stop, ini kenapa sih :(
Pengen nangis jadinya. Gue udaj narik napas dalem dalem berkali kali tapi tetep aja no use.
Bakal ada apa sih? Astaga gue gak suka banget begini.
Tertekan tauga?
Gue butuh.... Penenang.
Gue butuh Adam.
Gue butuh temen-temen gue.
Gue butuh mama.
Gue butuh dipeluk. Gue pengen dipeluk.
Please tell me that magic words --> "everything's gonna be alright. Don't you worry"

Please please could anyone hug me, stroke my hair and tell me that magic words? :'(

Some looks

I've been having no job today. So I decided to take a look at my looklet. I rarely open it because the internet was usually so being so lame when i open that web.

I'm in love!
Oh I'm in love with fashion.

Well, I know i have almost 0% on fashion news. But I do love doing fashion, I do love looking fashionable. Is that wrong? I think not.

So far I've been creating 4 looks today. Wanna se
e 'em?
Here, let me show you :)



Whatcha think, huh?
Have any looklet? Sign in, and follow me, I surely will follow you back
Comments and favourites are appreciated.
Go here to see mine --> LOOKLET.COM

Okay, Chatch ya later dude,
I LOVE YOU, UNTOLD :*

Sabtu, 01 Mei 2010

Well, i love you. That's just it

Jam 23.55 tadi gue dapet sms dari adam. Sekrang jam berapa? 00.20! Berarti smsnya sudah sekitar 25 menit yang lalu.
Oke itu gak penting sebenernya. Yang penting itu isi smsnya. Kenapa penting? Soalnya masa ya garagara baca sms itu gue menitikan aor mata. Cuma setetes dua tetes sih, tapi yaaaa tetap saja.

Tau itu air mata apa?
Air mata penyesalan *cieee dan air mata terharu *ehm

Hahahaha gila gila gila gue sayang banget sama lo dam, tauga?
Oke yg barusan itu sangat #frontal
Tapi peduli amat, pokoknya gue sayang titik. Terserah kalo ada yg gak suka. Gue hanya mengutarakan perasaan :p

Hari ini gue lagi ada sedikit ehm... Masalah?
Ya gak bisa dibilang masalah juga sih sebetulnya. Tapi ya pokoknya gitu dah.
Emang gue sih yg bikin garagara.
Bodoh ya, memag spesialisasi gue tuh bikin masalah dari yg seharusnya gak perlu jadi masalah.
Terus gue ngomel ngomel di twitter, karena sumpah hari ini gue BADMOOD TO THE VERY MAX!
Dan mungkin (pasti) dia baca.
And there he was, apologizing.
Hal yg seharusnya gak perlu dia lakukan mengingat itu bukan salahnya.
Oke ralat, ada satu salah dia. Nggak peka. Nah itu dia
Tapi oh well, overall itu semua salah gue yg terlalu egois.

I know he was trying to give his very best, but my ego wouldn't let me see all those things he was doing.
I'm so so so so so sorry for everything i've said and done.
I'm gonna try to be more understanding an put my ego aside.
We'll work this thing out so things can be more comfortable beetwen us *that's what you said :)

You know i love you so muuuucccchhhh, oh i love you, UNTOLD, more than you know :*

*whoops gue jadi curhat. Ahahha gapapadeh, gasuka jangan dibaca ya :p

Sleep tight, gotta prepare for a better tomorrow!

Rabu, 28 April 2010

This is what i think

Hey dude, wanna know something?
You're pathetic, you know that?
I might not understand what you're feeling right now
But i do understand what you're doing
I know you feel hurt inside,
but you're hurting yourself evenmore
And the worst part is... you're hurting others too
You might not say it, but you're blaming things on others
Just shut your mouth up
If it is just made for hurting people
Please, you're not the only one who's suffer

The Scorpio

Garagara Kak Mody gue jadi tertarik baca @ZodiacFact di twitter hahaha. Gila banget rasanya Scorpio itu banyak banget ya negatifnya, and unfortunately... or should i say fortunately sebagian dari yang disebutkan itu sesuai dengan kenyataan. The whole jealousy thing, cheating, truths, and even relationships. Wow. Wanna check them out? I've copied some of them:

Scorpio does have a problem with jealousy sometimes, and they really do have to work on it.
*I really really have to work on it sooner or later. I'm tired of being jealous actually, but i just can't help it. I often get jealous easily, sometimes over the stupidest thing ever. And it surely made me cry all night. Jealousy is dangerous i tell ya!

Scorpio is a feminine sign and is ruled by Mars and they are always involved in an inner conflict.

The best Advice Is To Be honest With a Scorpio.

Scorpios will cheat If they feel like their being Pressured in the relationship. *okay, this really happened. and i'm regreting this thing until now. How could i be SO STUPID :(

Scorpios have many admirers and their partners must accept that there is a lot of competition.

Scorpios like people who will be at their side throughout their lives.

Scorpios are the best of friends and the worst of enemies.

Scorpios are very good at handling dangerous and critical situations with ease *i really really wish i'm this person. I used to run away and hide, avoid the "dangerous and critical situations" instead of handling it. Such a coward

Scorpios have attractive personalities and they never leave any work incomplete.

A scorpio will gather evidence to prove that their partners are cheating.This is when the volcanic Scorpio temper can emerge.

Do not date a Scorpio if you want a broken heart

The Scorpio person is sometimes hypersensitive. *OHMYGOD THIS IS SO TRUE!

Scorpio is the greatest lovers in the world and this covers both the physical love as well as the platonic.


People usually feel something “strong” toward Scorpios in a friendship.

Scorpio's Secret Desire: To triumph

Scorpio's Life Pursuit: To survive against all opposition

There is no mistaking it when a Scorpio really fall for someone they pull out all the stops to impress them.


And here's about Scorpio's relationship with Libra:

Relationship with a Libra feels like a pendulum swinging until it gets comfortably settled at a stable point *I've gone through this phase and I wish that phase is completely over now, I'm starting to enjoying this relationship i have, and i'm falling more more more in love with my libra guy ;)

A Libra man due to his ego and flirtatious nature will always make a Scorpio woman neglected *it happens..... sometimes

Jumat, 23 April 2010

Jump Then Fall, Taylor Swift

Currently listening, humming, singing, and quoting. I love this song almost as much as I love him :p

I like the way you sound in the morning
We're on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound
I have ever heard

I like the way I can't keep my focus
I watch you talk you didn't notice
I hear the words but all I can think is
We should be together

Everytime you smile, I smile
And everytime you shine, I'll shine for you

Whoa oh I'm feeling you baby
Don't be afraid to jump then fall, jump
then fall into me

Baby, I'm never gonna leave you,
say that you wanna be with me too
Cause i'm gonna stay through it all so
Jump then fall

Well I like the way your hair falls in your face
You got the keys to me
I love each freckle on your face, oh
I've never been so wrapped up
Honey, I like the way you're everything i've ever wanted

I had time to think it oh-over
And all i can say is come closer
Take a deep breath and jump then fall into me

The bottoms gonna drop out from under our feet
I'll catch you, I'll catch you
When people say things that bring you to your knees
I'll catch you
The time is gonna come when you're so mad you could cry
But i'll hold you through the night until you smile

Whoa oh I need you baby
Don't be afraid please
Jump then fall, jump then fall into me

Evrytime you smile i smile
And everytime you shine, I'll shine
And everytime you're here baby, I'll show you, I'll show you
You can jump then fall, jump then fall,
jump then fall into me, into me

Selasa, 20 April 2010

Nothing's right

Lo tau?
Gue lagi sebel.
Sebel banget banget teramat sangat. Sebel to the max max max MAX. Saking keselnya sampe mau nangis. Eh nggak deng udah nangis tadi.

1. Gue sakit perut
Oke mungkin ini sudah biasa. Tapi ya tolong yang namanya sakit perut gak ilang ilang itu NGGAK ENAK. Sama sekali nggak enak. Sumpah gue benci banget. Apalagi ini sakit perut awet banget dari kemaren malem sampe hari ini.

2. Terancam gak bisa ikut UP ICT
Gue panik. Kertas weektest gue yang jadi syarat ikut ujian praktek ICT. HILANG! GONE! DISSAPEAR! Beneran gak ada di mana mana. Gimana nih besok aduh. Rencananya eke mau ngomong ke mr Glory besok siapa tau dikasih dispensasi. Tapi belum tentu juga. Tapi semoga tetep boleh ikutan. Amin amin amin. Sampe gak boleh gue bunuh diri (?)

3. Pending
Oke pending itu memang penghancur hubungan. Garagara pending waktu itu gue sempet kesel sama Adam garagara gue kira dia gak ngebales sms gataunya memang pending. Nah tapi ternyata pending yang berawal pada hari Minggu malam itu berlanjut sampe hari ini. Lucunya pendingnya itu cuma pas malem setiap jam 7 ke atas, pagi-paginya pasti sembuh dan lancar2 saja. Stress banget gue. Gak tau apa lu woy gua gak bisa pacaran nih~

4.
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Gatau lagi deh pokoknya gue lagi sebel banget nget nget nget nget. Ini juga nih Adam gak bales bales sms kan males banget gua dah.

OHIYA, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RISAD WIRIANDI MUSA. ALL THE GREATEST IN LIFE FOR YOU, BOY ;)

Senin, 19 April 2010

I'm falling, like i never fell

Hey dear, wanna know what i'm feeling?

I love how i love you
I love how you love me

We're just perfect, i guess
You complete me, you make me whole

I'm falling in love
Over and over and over again
with the same person,

and i'm happy to know that the person is you :)

Senin, 12 April 2010

Stupidity

I'm having a hard time dealing with life lately.
I'm so full of preasures right now, why can't i just enjoy my last time being a junior high school student, why can't i just having fun with my Recoureveuns for this one last time?
I'm stupid enough for ruin everything :'(

Minggu, 04 April 2010

Butuh..... aseton -,-

Hell-o!

Sekarang waktu menunjukan pukul 00.57 dan gue sama sekali belum merasakan yg namanya ngantuk itu. Ohmygod gimana nasib gue nanti pagi? Padahal dalam waktu kurang lebih 6 jam lagi gue bakal kembali berada di sekolah gue tercinta: Global Prestasi School.

Eh gue lagi panik tauga?
Masa gue masih pake kuteks.
Warna biru metalik.
Belum gue hapus.
Bentar lagi sekolah.
Aseton gue H I L A NG!

Yak, sepertinya gue bakal tewas hari ini. Kalo masih mau baca postingan gue berdoa yg banyak ya semoga gak ada guru yg sadar atau semoga eno punya aseton atau semoga aseton gue ketemu. Amin amin amin amin AMIN :)

Ohiya! Telat bgt gue ngabarin tapi.... UN SUDAH SELESAI!
I still don't believe it. So fast, isn't it?
Tapi ya bullshit bgt yg bilang abis UN udah boleh bebas. Kenapa? Karena faktanya abis UN kami para murid kelas 9 masih harus menghadapi 2 buah cobaan lagi yg dikenal sebagai Ujian Sekolah (US) dan Ujian praktek. Dan keduanya lebih merepotkan daripada mempersiapkan UN. Dan baru gue sadari juga bahwa gue jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuh lebih suka pelajaran UN dibandingkan pelajaran US. Gurugurunya juga jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh lebih enak di pelajaran UN. But anyway, gue bakal coba untuk menjalaninya dengan lapang dada dan berusaha menikmatinya seperti kata kak astha. Katanya "toh nanti bakal kebayar sama liburan panjang". Yep, you were right kak! Lagian se-ogah ogahnya gue sama pelajaran dan gurunya gue LEBIH OGAH lagi dapet nilai jelek di mata pelajaran US. I'm quite good at remembering so what's with the bad scores.

Terus ya masa gue seneng soalnya Adam udah mulai cerita cerita sama gue. I'm glad i'm no longer be the only one who's complaining, talking, cursing about life. Dan sekarang dia sedang dalam perang batin (?) yg cukup serius. Ehm bukan perang batin dwng gue ngarang tapi mau disebut masalah juga bukan. Ya intinya dia mulai memberontak dan gak suka dikekamg. Oh that's very usual. Be patient Adam, it's just a part of growing up process, you'll do and be just fine, i'm here if you need me :)

Okay i really need to get some sleep.
Sleep tight,
I love you, baby :*

Jumat, 26 Maret 2010

Four, Three

4-H
I was so happy! Watching movie with all of my Recoureveuns and teachers. Who's not happy? We watched Shutter Island at Metropolitan Mall. That was once in a life time moment. Makin berat dan makin gak rela ninggalin SMP kalau begini caranya hahaha. Best moment ever, I won't forget it. Can't even describe what i felt, it's just, untold. I LOVE YOU ALL, LIKE... ALOT!

3 more days
to go...
No school for today. The teacher called this as silent day. I spent the whole day at home. Getting up early, studying, taking nap, eating, yeah that kind of stuff. Boring, but relaxing.

Hey, i miss Adam. Where the hell is he? He said he had no pulse so he couldn't text me. Don't you know i'm dying here to hear anything about you :(
By the way, tomorrow's our 6 months monthlyversary ;)

God bless me and my Recoureveuns for facing the national exam,
catch ya later, goodnight,
I love you, oh and yes you too :*

Rabu, 24 Maret 2010

Six, Five

6 more days to go...

I was major happy to know that i got REALLY good scores for my tryout. As you've already known that i got 92 for my math. I also got 92 for indonesian (i'm the highest <3). On the following day i got 88 for my english and i got 86 for my science. Imagine how happy i was :D

5 days before 'the day'...

Math and indonesian tryout today, and guess what? My score is increasing! I got 95 for math and 84 for indonesian. Haaaaaaa thankyou God thankyou thankyou thankyou! I hope that my scores will increase more more and more until the national exam.
Ehm, i'm not feeling good today. I think i'm sick. Gotta have some rest then study for science and english.

Pray for me, would you?
Thankyouuuuu
I love you more than you know :*

Senin, 22 Maret 2010

Nine, eight, seven

Nine days before the day
I felt sooooooo lazy to go to school for doing saturday program. The reason? I was REAL tired. But unfortunately my mommy won't let me. When i asked her to skip the saturday program, she said no. So i did it. I attended the saturday program thing. And you know what? I was glad that i followed what my mommy said. Surprisingly it was the last saturday program. I thought there'll be once more saturday program before the national exam but the teachers were somehow being kind enough to give us a silent day. Thankyou teachers :)

Eight more days to go
Nothing special actually.
Just studying for monday's tryouts; math and indonesia
I really wished i could do well and get really good scores.

Seven more days to count
I did it! Yes i did it!
After all the bad scores finally i got good and satisfying scores for today's tryouts.
You know? I got NINTYTWO for math. That really made my day. I am happyyyyyyyyy :D
Well i don't know yet about the indonesian score. But according to the manual check i guess i could get 92 or 94. Let's just hope. Okay?
Okay, tomorrow's gonna be sciemce and english tryout. Wish me luck would you?
I believe that i can get good scores too for these tests.

God bless me and my Recoureveuns,
Officially yours :*

Jumat, 19 Maret 2010

Ten

10 days people! 10 days left until 'the day'
Hari ini semua berjalan dengan baik alhamdulillah. Walaupun nilai IPA gue gak begitu memuaskan tapi mendinglah. Gue masih dapet 70 dan itu gue bersyukur banget. Makasih ya Allah.

Ohiya, lo harus tau! Tadi pelajaran terakhir kan pelajaran fisika, seperti biasa kita disuruh ngerjain soal gitu terus periksa bareng dan di nilai. Gue dapet hmm 85. Peningkatan! Selama ini gue cuma dapet 65-75 doang hehe.
Nah pas udah selesai tuh tibatiba Mam Yuli masuk bagiin jadwal buat minggu depan. Terus waktu Mam Yuli keluar lagi sebagian anak pada ngelilingin Mr Andre dengan tujuan ingin melihat jadwal. Entah darimana asalnya tibatiba orang-orang pada salam-salaman sambil ngucapin "Semoga sukses UN ya" dan ujung-ujungnya anak-anak 9B pada buat lingkaran terus kita ngucapin keinginan kita satu persatu.

Pertama seperti biasa gilirannya Reyhan si 'Lord 9BOOM4X' terus berlanjut ke yang lain lain. Kalo dirangkum semua kira-kira inti dari doa kita adalah:

1. Lulus UN 100%
2. Rata-rata kelas 9B paling tinggi satu angkatan
3. Tetep kompak walaupun udah pisah
4. Jangan lupa sama kenangan-kenangan di 9B

Dan setiap orang yang ngucapin doa diaminin sama anak-anak lainnya. Selesainya kita 'tos reyhan' lengkap dengan 'tepuk reyhan'. Terus kita duduk dan mulai bermusik. Tadinya cuma Ellen sama Chacha ngetok ngetok meja, yg lain ikutan, sisanya nyanyi 'Rey.....han....! Eeeee.... sambil nulis! Heeeello sodara, siapa yg salah! Rey.... han....! Han..... Rey....! Rey rey rey? Han han han!' SUMPAH SERU BANGET. Gue ngingetnya pengen nangis yampun 9B the greatest of all dah pokoknya. Nanti perpisahan kita harus jadi ke Anyer ya. Ingat itu... HARUS! :'D

Oke deh sekian dulu dari saya, mau les piano nih~

Goodbye, have a goodnight,
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU HELL YEAH I LOVE YOU :*

Kamis, 18 Maret 2010

A text

Gue masih kangen rupanya udah lama nggak sharing di sini...

Jujur gue udah sering banget nangis garagara nilai TO. Gak tau kenapa gue kayak mendadak bego. GUE TAKUT. Takut banget. Sekarang gue jadi suka takut kalo mau TO math atau IPA karena gue takut lihat nilai akhirnya. Sekali lagi, GUE TAKUT. Yang parah adalah waktu gue tau IPA gue dapet 50, padahal gue yakin banget gue bisa ngerjainnya. Yang satu lagi gue nangis pas IPA gue dapet 62.5, tepat seminggu setelahnya. Sekali lagi itu karena gue kecewa sama nilai gue. Rasanya gue bisa ngerjainnya, gue yakin banget bisa dapet minimal 80. Tapi kenapa cuma segitu? Kenapa?

Yang terakhir kali gue nangis itu gue udah gak mood ngapangapain, pulang sekolah gue langsung pulang bahkan nggak ikut tambahan math. Gue pulang pun nggak bilang bilang langsung ngeloyor pergi aja saking emosinya. Tapi akhirnya sampe rumah gue berasa gak enak akhirnya gue sms adam, minta maaf karena pulang gak bilangbilang dan buruburu. Terus adam bilang nggak apaapa dan dia nanya kenapa tadi gue mendadak 'misterius'. Akhirnya gue ceritain deh semuanya. LO HARUS TAU! Gue ngetik smsnya sambil berlinang air mata haha so stupid.

Gue bilang kalo gue capek. Rasanya gue mau belajar kayak gimana juga nilai gue gak naik naik. Padahal orang orang percaya kalo gue bisa, mereka yakin gue bisa. Tapi dengan nilai gue yg sekarang begini gue takut. Gue takut banget gue bakal ngecewain mereka. Gue takut gue bakal kecewa sama diri gue sendiri. Gue capek, dan gue takut.

Terus dia bales begini...

"Kamu harus kuat, gak selamanya belajar itu menjadi kesempurnaan, mungkin kamu hrus nambah ketelitian, yang penting jangan negative thinking say, yang penting nilai akhirnya bagus. Kamu harus kuat ya"

OHMYGOD i cried even more when i saw that message. Entah kenapa gue jadi merasa bersalah banget gue ngeluh terus ini itu, gue cengeng banget sedangkan dia bisa sekuat itu. Gue egois banget kayaknya dan dia baiknya ampun ampunan.

He's the strong one and i know he'll always be there for me, i can always count on him. Thankyou thankyou thankyou adam, you made me realize how useless the tears were. You know i love you baby, untold :*

Intinya? Gue cuma mau nunjukin betapa baiknya adam itu hahahaha. Dan..... menangis dan menyesal gak bakal memperbaiki apapun. Jadi gue harus berjuang berjuang berjuang, buang jauh jauh pikiran 'gue-capek-belajar-karena-gak-bakal-ada-hasilnya' pasti ada, somehow pasti semua yg diperjuangin bakal ada hasilnya.

Can't stop saying i love you,
wish me luck for tomorrow's tryout, please? :)

Eleven

11 more days to go and my scores are still BAD :(
I am scared. But i should calm myself. How can i face the exam if i'm afraid of it? Okay inhale..... exhale... I CAN DO IT.

Gue heran. Padahal gue udah belajar ya gue udah latihan latihan dan latihan, tapi lo tau? Math gue masih tetep stuck di 75. Udah 3 kali tryout berturut turut math gue tetep 75. Gak turun gak naik, teteeeeeep aja di situ. Muak gue.

Rasanya nilai math gue gapernah nyampe 80. Ada apasih? Apa gue kena kutukan atau apagitu ya Allah kenapa sih ini. IPA gue juga nih radarada. Padahal waktu itu sempet dapet 80 dan gue BANGGA BANGET. Eh abis itu mendadak turun jadi 50 tapi untung naik lagi. Tapi tetep aja cuma 62.5. Pokoknya TO IPA besok gue mesti dapet di atas 80. Please please please ya Allah jangan bikin panik begini. Sumpah deh gue jadi mendadak bego begini. Nilai gue bikin gue panik sendiri. GUE PANIK! Okay, calm down.

Okelah kalau begitu gue out sekarang. Mau puas puasin browsing dulu sebelum kembali menghadap buku pelajaran. Pray for me, would you? And also pray for my Recoureveuns.

Thankyou,
I love you like always :*

Rabu, 17 Maret 2010

Twelve

Urgent, urgent, urgent!
Only 12 more days left until the national exam.
OHMYGOD! How could it be that fast
Tomorrow my school's gonna hold the 9th tryout. Math tryout for the exact.
And what the hell i'm doing still writing this post on blogger? Silly me. Sorry, but i just can't help it :p
Okay, gotta go work on something else.
I've studied already, hope my score's gonna be more than 80. Amin.

Wish me luck,
I LOVE YOU :*

P.S this is kinda weird. I don't know what happened. I just got this urgent feeling to post something and it turned out to be like this. Well whatever~

Kamis, 18 Februari 2010

Back on bussiness

Hello people, i'm back in the bussiness!
Ergh it has been a rough day lately. Try outs, weekly tests, pra-US, pra-UN, homework and so on. Gue heran kenapa gue belom juga gila. But anyway, sekarang gue udah gak urusan sama yg namanya weekly test, pra-US juga sudah lewat, pra-UN pun barusaja berlalu. Sekarang tinggal fokus try out dan the most important of all; NATIONAL EXAM!
Oh dear, i can't believe it would be this fast. Only 38 days left and my scores are still not good enough. I'm still waaaay too far from the target I've set for myself. That's why i HAVE to keep on working on it. I wanna make the people around me proud of me. They put their trust on me, i won't dissapoint them, i promise.

Ehm sebenarnya, apa inti dari omongan gue di atas?
Honestly, gue gatau. Gue hanya mengeluarkan apa yg ada di otak gue. Gue merasa harus mengeluarkannya karena gue merasa otak gue terlalu penuh dengan berbagai macam pikiran yg makin lama makin bikin gue merasa terbebani dan akhirnya gue berasumsi bahwa otak gue sebentar lagi akan mencapai puncak kapasitasnya dan DUAR! Meledaklah dia -,-

Lagipula kayaknya i'm starting being the person that i am; moody.
Yeah, i'm not in the mood for blogging, instead i used twitter a lot these days to express my feelings. That's kinda sucks for you dear blog, isn't it? Well i'm really really trully sorry, i'll try to write again as often as possible. I probably would do a countdown for national exam in this blog starting.... Tomorrow maybe? Just see when will i stop by here to say a simple 'hey people' followed by unimportant yet meaningful sentences. Okay i'm playing around with my words, i actually don't really understand what that mean :P i just love using english.

Hey it's 23:23! Let's make a wish!
........................
What's your wish?
Mine?
I wish everything will be just fine. I've had enough preasure i don't need an extra.
For now.... At least

Well, since it's almost midnight and i have to spend another day at school torrow, i should really get some sleep. Or else i would end up in the medical room tomorrow. Not that the place is whatsoever but i think 'why should we be in the medical room if we could be in the class with my 9boom4x, or taking break with my recoureveuns, i mean, what's the point?'

Okay gue udah mulai ngelantur.
Lebih baik saya out sekarang.
Nite world, sleep tight, i love you UNTOLD :*

Sabtu, 02 Januari 2010

welcoming the 2010

I know it's kinda late but....

HAPPY NEW YEAR, PEOPLE
The countdown is (already way) over, and now it's time for the year 2010;
another chance to be a better person
May this year be a wonderful year for us
GOODBYE 2009, WELCOME 2010

I still love you, and I always will,
UNTOLD :*