Thank you, Loves

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday happy birthday happy birthday to me!
Can you believe that I am no longer 17 now? I'm freakin 18 and somehow that scares me. I'm in no far of being 20. Life sure gone by so fast ya? Hm. But one of my friend said that it doesn't matter, what's really matter is that you enjoy your life to the fullest, and I agree.

Well, I turned 18 on Sunday, 11 November 2012, and I honestly never thought that my friends were going to do a wake-up-surprise for me. I was on the ugliest state of face and my pose really wasn't appropriate to be displayed but in they went to my room anyway. They were singing "Happy birthday" and I immediately woke up and buried my face in the pillow with none other reason but to hide my ugly after bed face. After they finished with the song I blew the candles on the Blueberry Cheesecake, I then went to hug my father who was apparently in charge of filming the surprise, he hugged me back and said "Happy birthday, beautiful." Tears started forming at the corner of my eyes but I held it back. After that I went to hug and to high-five my dearest friends and of course my lovingly sweet and caring boyfriend.

As life went on, we ended up at my dining table (after a few stops because of the hug attack from my little sisters). I cut the cake they brought me, the first cake definitely went to Papa, then Mama. My little sisters took the 3rd and 4th place. Adam came 5th and the rest I gave it to my friends with no particular order. The cake was delicious, but since I just wake up i couldn't eat much, I let my friends finish the rest of it.

My sweet indulging Blueberry Birthday Cheesecake!

The cake was gone, replaced by a big mountain of Nasi Uduk with sambal kacang, eggs, and fried chicken made by my mother. Oh mother you know me so well, I love you! My friends, who really really really loves to eat immediately went for a plate of everything.

After the meal, as he had promised me, Adam took his guitar and sang me songs. The first one was Little Things by One Direction. I absolutelybloodylutely in love with this song. The lyrics are just so touching and not exaggerating. One song down, 1 more to go. Next song was a sudden request for me, it was my song. The song that he wrote for me. It was overwhelmingly sweet, actually it was my 2nd anniversary gift from him. Isn't he a keeper? <3 p="p">

He's an amazing guitar player and believe it or not, he CAN sing :)

So that's it. I'm not gonna blabber much about my birthday. All i want to say that I thank all of you for the birthday wishes on bbm, for the birthday voice notes, for the birthday mentions on twitter, and for the birthday comments on facebook. I love you i love you i love you i love you all without exceptions.

Thank you, loves.
Hugs and kisses attack.
I'm 18 now :)

Goodbye.

People say that experience is the best teacher, but what if you never learn from it?

Been there done that.
First it was 3 years ago. I still remember how it made me feel, I still remember how I cried every time I had the chance to. I still remember how that was the worst valentine's day in my entire years I've lived in.

Then I got back up and live normally facing each day without thinking of anything that are related to you. But you came back. As much as I wanted to hate you I couldn't. So I gave up and I gave in. I have to admit that I loved the feeling, and just as I thought the magical moment vanished without any notices. Leaving nothing behind but me cursing myself of being such a fool.

I watched you came and left, in and out of so many beautiful souls and never have I dreamt of being greeted by you ever again.

It was my birthday, you finally decided to came back into my life, on my birthday. Once again, as much as I wanted to hate you I just couldn't do it. I don't exactly know why but though you've broken my heart so many times I keep feeling that excitement, happiness, and nervousness every time you greeted me. Every time.

It was sweet. It was every thing I could ask for except that we might not be destinied together. And you know how it ends right? Yes. Once again I'm making a fool out of myself for still hanging hopes too high. For actually hoping it would have a different ending this time.

To tell you the truth this is by far the most hurtful heart broken that I've ever felt. I'm not even kidding, neither do I joke. For the first time we shared our true feelings towards each other (though they are all still a bit vague because we don't really know what are the feelings called) and for the first time I let out all of my disappointments and it still ends badly.

You may not want to say goodbye, but I do.
Thank you for stopping by, it really means a lot for me. It was sweet, it was beautiful, and I feel so loved. I knew it would never worked out between us. I'm gonna be missing you, so much, and I'm not just saying. Then again, at the begging of this I told you not to pour salt in the old scar but yeah who am I kidding? It's not you without a handful of salt ready to be poured to the re-opened old wound.

Such lovely short time we had.

Quotes from My Precious Ones

"To be strong and to enjoy every second of doing something that you love." -Dwipa Hamzah Tjakranegara

"Don't let the negatives over power the positives, you've got a lot of potentials in you." -Adam Putra Laksana

"What if you stop asking pessimistic question and start thinking of making new ways? We are born to solve problems." -Orista Primadewa Hadiwiardjo