A special thanks for a special friend

This is a special thanks to Bulan Austenita also known as Iicha. Thanks for being such a good listener all the time my dear :)

I was home alone and feeling bored. I decided to make a phone call, i dialed Iicha's number, I had to wait a few seconds until she picked up. We were talking about a lot of things. The main topic was about the plan to go out tomorrow. She wanted to go out with his boyfriend and she asked me if I wanna join them. I was afraid that i'd bother if I joined but she said "offcourse not" so I said "Yes I wanna join".

But the subject soon changed. I've just finished reading some story on youtube, and that was an amzingly amazing story, i couldn't help but told Iicha the whole story. I told her that the story kind of remainding me about the boy used to like. And the fact I've been freaking missing him a lot these days. And how I'd be even freaking missing him when he had graduated, which was just a few moths from now.

I didn't know how, but finally we ended up with me telling her a lot of things that I've been through. Things that i was afraid to spread to others. Feelings that i was afraid to show to others. I was so emotional and uncontroled that tears decided to fell from my eyes. I didn't expect that but I couldn't do anything. Iicha was freaked out to hear me crying but I said I was fine which was definitelly not true.

I continued on talking and crying at the same time and Iicha was still listening to me. Sometimes she gave a couple of advice that might help. Sudenly the phone was loosing its energy and it was freaking dead. I was like "Oh shit!" because that means I had to end the conversation while I was still having a lot to tell. I couldn't do anything but put the damn phone back on its place and throwing my self to the bed. I thought about what Iicha had said, but soon I realized that It won't work.

I know crying isn't helping, but I need to let these tears fall. I've been holding it waaaaaay to long and I can't hold it any longer. Sorry for crying over the phone and making you worried sick about me, thanks for listening dear, you know, it means A LOT. I really mean it. I love you soooo much, muah!

Just felt like I wanna do this in english. Sorry for the bad sentences and grammars. I've been freaking sucks at the grammar lately and I don't know why.