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Wow, 2012 already. Don't you think time flies in full speed?
Anyway, happy new year everyone!
Though 2011 has been my favourite year so far (obviously because I got the best sweet seventeen birthday date ever on that year (re: 11 november 2011)) I still hope 2012 will be a much more better year.
So, I've think of a few new year resolutions and I thought it would be better if I write them down in here.

1. Earn my own money
2. Flatten my belly, and lighten my skin
3. Get into the top 5 in my class
4. Be more organized, discipline, and persistance
5. Be less careless
6. Get my ears pierced

Hmm come to think of it, this is weird. This afternoon I've thought about so many resolutions but right now, I'm facing the laptop screen and my fingers are all on the keyboard, ready to type everything down, my mind goes blank. The heck is wrong with my brain :/

Okay so, there we go, my not-so-many-new-year-resolutions. I'm thinking of writing it down in a piece of paper then stick it on my bedroom wall.

Hm, what more should I say? I think that's all for now.

Happy January 1, 2012, loves!

Pattern

I'm currently listening to this song called London(foolishly) by Nick Jonas, my all time favorite singer and musician. I have been listening to this song for the last couple hours now, I've repeated it over and over and over again and somehow at one point I cried over this song while I was singing along. Thinking that the words are nearly the same with what I'm feeling right now. Almost. Well, I don't get the overall meaning of the song but If I look at the sentences, there are some of them that are very similiar to my condition. So, yeah.

Another foggy night in london town
All the dreamers are asleep
No one understands what I have found
No, not even me

Foolishly I fall
To the obvious pattern of it all
Carelessly I stall
Thinking change was just a friend that never called
Tragedies I write
When it means we count the blessings in our life

Could it be that I now stand corrected?
Could it be that I now stand affected by this blinding light?
Blinding light...

Big ben breathing down my neck again
I feel my time is running out
And all this baggage that I'm carrying
It's time to lay it down

A cup of tea out on my own tonight
Now I'm changing by this blinding light
Yeah...

Cheers from the 17 years old ;)

OHMY I KNOW I LOOK SOOOOOOO EXTREMELY TERRIBLE IN THAT PICTURE >.< BUT.................

Have I told you that I'm a 17 years old girl now? I'm no longer 'sixteen going on seventeen'. I am seventeen right now. I am soooooo excited about being 17 though I don't know why. And the fact that my birthday was on the most special date of the year which is 11 November 2011 made me even more excited!

This is by far the most amazing birthday ever! Because I got to invite my close friends and my family to a small party at my house. It was such a night, I got lots of presents (wohoo!) and the most incredible thing was I got to spend my special day with my special people.

Thankyou for the wishes, the prays, and the presents. It meant sooooooo much more than you can ever imagine.

I love love love love love love you all!

Cheers, the 17 years old girl ;)

Quote of the day

"Kalau lo nikmatin setiap detiknya, kenapa harus dianggap sia-sia?"

Dyah Trisna Atinirmala Prayoga,

16 going on 17 years old,

Saturday, 5 November 2011,

Bekasi, Indonesia.

Get out of the way

Dear you,

please find another path to walk on

Sincerely,

With you appear in every place she goes doesn't help her to forget you, duh?

Finally

This morning she saw him "smiling" when they made eye contact.

Shewas so happy she could hardly breathe. Literally.

She wanted to jump as high as she could

She wanted to scream as loud as she could

On the afternoon she kept asking herself if it was real

Was it her, he was smiling at?

Or was she imagining things?

And tonight she finally got the answer

The shocking fact that he's already with someone else

And the smile probably wasn't real

It makes her realize that she should stop dreaming

She should stop waiting

She should stop hoping

Thankyou for 4 years of longing, she spoke quitely.

She thought to herself that this isn't as hurt as the last time, but it's definitely not the feeling she wants to feel.

List of hell

Wow pulang live in langsung disambut tugas yg banyak, belum lagi weektest. Wow banget bener-bener wow. Lebih wow daripada makan maicih.

Anyway, mau review tugas dulu nih biar gak lupa

- ICT: video global expo

- Civics: Artikel tentang reshuffel kabinet

- Math: Halaman 113

- ICAS: baca carmila, vocabulary workshop 3

- Live in: Laporan

Oke cukup banyak bukan, dan ini sepertinya deadlinenya minggu ini semua. Yang gue udah kerjain baru Math doang itu pun belum selesai, tinggal 2 nomer lagi sih. Yang lain? Nihil bener bener kosong-song-song-song.

Hm, padahal mau cerita tentang live in kemaren yang super duper ekstra seru, tapi karena tugas yang menggunung mungkin ditunggu dulu kali ya.

Bussy bee,

Trissi Prayoga *lap keringet*

You just can't

It's the feeling you get when your 'good' turns out to be 'isn't good enough'

And you just want to give everything up

Because there's no point of trying anymore

It's the feeling you get when your friends making you feel so small

And you want to blame everything on them but you can't

Because it isn't exactly their fault

It's the feeling you get when you want to cry so much

But you can't because it won't solve anything.

I wonder,

Do you even know my name?

I need a better topic

Gue baru sadar.

Blog gue kenapa isinya galau terus ya?

Kenapa coba kenapa?

Gue bener-bener harus cari topik yang lebih bermutu. Jauh bermutu dari ini.

Tapi apa?

Jadi galau........................... tuh kan galau lagi x_x

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Catch ya later, this stomach ache is killing me. Feeling like throwing up :&

I'll fing a better topic to write on this blog, promise!

Second

Same date, same month, 2 years ago, I was smiling from ear to ear because at that moment we started our story. And thank God, at this same date same month 2 years after that moment, we are still together. Celebrating our 2nd anniversary.

Happy anniversary, love

Thankyou for the indiscribable feelings you gave me.

Thankyou for the magnificent 2 years.

Unconditionally yours,

Dyah Trisna Atinirmala Prayoga

Stressful

Meeeen kelas 11 berat banget meeeen. kalo kemaren kelas 10 berat karena harus adaptasi, yg sekarang berat karena pelajarannya berkali kali kali kali kali lipat lebih susah dan materinya banyak banget. Ditambah lagi berhubung kelas gue otaknya dewa dewa semua anak anaknya ya belajarnya jadi cepet banget bat bet bat bet langsung ganti materi. lah gua? bengong cengo. Untung alhamdulillah banget gue masih ada kemauan belajar.

Yaudah sebenernya sih mau ngomong gitu aja, curhat dikit. kepala udah mau meledak. Gotta continue my study for tomorrow's test: civics............ plus an oral test for TOEFL.

wish me luck. Lots and lots of them

*fingercrossed*

Happy 27th of August!

I love you.

Please?

If I could just say hi,

would you return it back?

Stop

I should stop doing this.

It's killing me and I need to stop.

But I don't know how to stop.

..............................................

Or, I don't want to stop :/

I thought it would come true...

She's a professional dreamer.

Whose her biggest dream has been chrushed.

And now her heart is empty and she doesn't know what to do anymore.

She wants to cry.

Her friends tell her she'd be a fool for letting tears run down her cheeks.

For something like that.

Something that isn't worth to cry for.

Instead she just sits there, starring blankly, her mind wonders.

She continues dreaming, but then she stops.

She doesn't want anymore dream broken.

It was a dream, it is a dream, and it will always be just a dream.

Congratulation :')

Struggling

I'm stressing out!

Lots of works with short deadlines.

1. Math

2. Mandarin

3. ICAS (writing assigment)

4. Religion

5. PE

6. ICAS (reading assigment)

7.

8.

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Only God knows the rest :|

And so far, I'm only done with math and PE, and i'm halfway through the ICAS assigment which is writing an articel for in-flight magazine.

And to add more loads to my brain, these XI Science 1 mates are waaaaay too much for me. They're such brilliant students and sometimes i think I'm nothing compares to them. Well, i try not to think that way but......... it's quite hard.

Wish me luck, i don't think i can contend another day, but are you joking?! HAVE to, even if i don't want to

Seeking for holiday~

XI SC 1

Hello, how are you? I'm fine thankyou.

Wow! I can't believe i'm going bact to school again. A

nd I can't believe I'm a 11th grader already. Where does the time go?

New school year means new lessons, new books, new juniors, new stationaries (lovelove), and............ NEW CLASSMATES!

I got into this class!

Though it's much quiter than my X4 I still love this new class of mine. Yea, except when the first time I saw the name of my new classmates I got a slight heart attack. LOL. How could I not? They all have a super brain!!! Creepy :s

But I'm proud to be put on this class, it means the teachers thought that I'm just as capable as those classmates of mine who have super brain.

Dubidu, looking forward for a wonderful school year.

They say, being a XI grader means you "own" the school :p

All hail XI SCIENCE 1!!!! m(-_-)m m(-_-)m

Underwater Camera

Was searching for some underwater cameras last night, and I found this not-to-expensive-with-a-good-review underwater camera, Brica wp 50.

The price is Rp 660,000,00 and that's not too expensive

that I probably can buy it with my own money.

I have to learn how to save money. I'm such a big spender.

Hopefully I can buy this thing. I really really really want this.

Spongebob boys' day!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SWEETEST FUNNIEST MOST LOVABLE TWINS!

DWIMA HAMID TJAKRANEGARA

&

DWIPA HAMZAH TJAKRANEGARA

We gave them a surprise this morning. We actually came to their house. With a wonderful help from their mother and the driver and the brother and the sister and the maids we managed to sneak into their house without them noticing. They were so shocked. I love their expression when we just came down from the stairs. I felt like wanna gave them a huge hug!!!!

Karina, Dwipa's girlfriend was the one who came up with this brilliant idea and I asked her If I could join. And she said yes! So there we were. Giving them surprise. Throwing them with eggs, flour, water, and soap. And ofcourse! Eating the birthday cake.

I had so much fun today. Btw, I'm too lazy to post pictures because I can't choose which one should i put in. But you can definitely see them on my facebook page.

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SPONGEBOB BOYS! Thankyou for being the best of friends. Have a wonderful new age, goodluck :D

Sorry.

Having the worst day, the most terrible day of my life.

God, could it be more worse?

............. And you guys are not helping. AT ALL.

I'm so totally done with you guys. You think I'm okay? NO! Big NO!

You think I'm fine with all that decisions? No! I feel like you don't need me.

I guess, being in highschool makes..... Oh scratch that! FORCE is the right word. Yeah highschool forces you to learn how to be fake. How to be hypocrite. How to talk bullshits. How to insult people. How to do bad things. Sht. I hate highschool.

I miss my junior high life. Bring me back those times.

I'm sorry to say this.

And i know someday I'm gonna regret this.

Maybe tomorrow, when I have my sanity back, I'll feel bad for saying this.

But definitely not now. I just need to say this now.

That.....

You are such a so-called friends.

I'm sorry, thankyou.

You can hate me for this.

Lovliest creature

Was fooling around on cameroid with Shina, my baby cousin. Actually she's not a baby anymore, she's 3 already! Ohmy look how fast the time goes.

Here goes the story,

I was planning on taking pictures of myself, I wanted to change my avatar on twitter and my display picture for my BBM. Then when I opened cameroid.com Shina suddenly sit beside me and I asked her to join me.

Here are some photos of us:

Ugly faces. LOL I love this picture ♥

Look! Tante Dewi is on the background

The lovliest creature in the whole wide world!

♥♥♥♥♥

With Shina's mami, Tante Rini

Changed my BBM display picture already. I picked the ugly faces. Now I have to choose which one will I use for my twitter avatar, whatcha think? ;)

Photographs

Okay, so apparently i had nothing to write on this blog.

Nothing came to my mind, actually.

But then, I decided to post some photographs.

I was clicking through Adam's facebook page, and I found these in his album.

You know the 'one you've been tagged into others' photos' kinda album. Oh you know what I mean, don't you?

And, I found these:

On August 14th 2009, we were still friends, he was actually hitting on someone else ;)

Those 2 photographs were taken by... Chacha or Ellen, I guess. We were in 9B's class room and i think it was on 2nd break, or 3rd break? nvrmind, we weren't couples yet, but at that moment I was starting to fall for him. We texted for hours :/

LOL! This one is my all time favorite photograph :') I remember, I was talking to Adam when suddenly Dwima came, interrupting as always. When Chacha (or Ellen?) was about to take picture of us, Dwima put his hand on my head (almost like he wanted to hit it) and I spontaneously held his hand. I had no idea Adam was looking at us (or was he? It looks like he is)

Looks like I'm going to have a long night, I'm starting to miss my junior high years again. Well actually I never stop missing them. It seems like i'm having a really great time on those photograps doesn't it? I am having the greatest time of my life. Oh, I was.

Never stop missing you,

dear Junior High years :')

My desktop ;)

I'm sooooo in love with this picture.

It's taken on 13th of february.

It was on my Bali Examination day.

You see, I'm having this Tari Bali lesson since June last year and finally i was able to join the examination on february this year.

I offered Adam to come and watch me perform and he said yes. I was so thrilled.

Long story short, There we were, taking pictures after my performance. Papa was the one who took this picture.

And I don't know, I just love this picture of us.

Oh, I love you to, ofcourse ;)

It exists

Hell-o!

I don't know if it's really happening or if it's just me having over active thoughts as usual. But I feel like I'm getting my karma right now.

Ya know, the whole thing "Karma does exist" thing, well, it's true!

It's happening. To me. Right now.

Okay, like I said, I don't know if it's really happening or just my thoughts, but anyway I'm really really really sorry about what I've done to you. You know who you are.

And I admit, yes, this isn't a good feeling at all. I should've known it before I did those bad stuffs.

Really. I am sorry.

We made it

Phew,

20 months are a lot of months. And, we made it!

Though we've had our rough times.

And I'm sure there are still lots of things we have to face in the future.

But for now....

Congratulation, I love you!

Happy monthlyversary, Laksana ♡

Enlighten me, please?

Wow. So this is highschool. Full of bullshits. Hypocrite people. Lies. Fakeness.

Hell, what’s the fun of it?

People always say that highschool is the best thing that ever happen on their life, but I haven’t seen that part yet. I’m not comfortable, I’m not having fun. I can’t even laugh a real laughter.

I’m not saying that I’m the innocent one, I do bad things. I do lie. I do fake things. I even talk about someone elses on their back. Hey, it’s undeniable! Even though I know that’s a really really really – and by that I mean REALLY a bad thing to do. But Hell, who’s saint in this freakin’ cruel world?! No one, i tell ya, NO ONE!

What I’m saying is, I really am looking forward to seeing the good part in highschool. Because what I have seen now are just a bunch of test, homeworks, uncomfortable environtment, and so on.

I have no Idea on how higschool life works. is there anyone out there who cares enough to enlighten me?

Life’s keep changing, currently. And again I say, HOW COULD I FIT IN?

I want to be able to say that ‘highschool is the best thing that ever happen to me’ thing. Lucky you who has found it. I’d say, congratulation! I hope, my turn is right on the corner :)

What a fool, what a shame

"Well it has been a year, it doesn't surprise me. Merry Christmas, I wrapped it up and sent it with a note saying 'I love you' I meant it. Now I know what a fool I have been, but if you kiss me now I know you'd fool me again" - Last Christmas, Taylor Swift

Did I make a perfect decision or what?

I thought you've changed...

Oh no, if you've changed why the hell you're still doing this to me.

I thought you really are sorry for what happened last year...

But oh! If you really are sorry, why do you do this freaking thing to me again?

I thought I would hate you...

But unfortunatelly I cannot.

Geez, why you have to make me miserable :'(

You really have no idea how this getting into me, jerk :|

I hate you, I swear! *i know, it won't happen, just feeling like saying it*

and, I'm sorry to you, I feel like a bitch. Really sorry :(

WHOOP WHOOP

Say... We're going to Old Town tomorrow!

Hip hip HURAAAY!

Finally. Refreshing :)

The 10th grade students are having our fieldtrip tomorrow. GOD! It's like a holiday! The teachers say that we're going to visit the Bahari Museum and the Fatahilah Museum. I'M SO EXCITED! Pluss +++ My class and his class are on the same bus. WHOOP WHOOP! :D :D :D

I've packed all my things on my mickey backpack. It's such an elementary, I know. But who cares? I've also prepared my camera, emptied the memory card, and charged the battery. The only thing that I haven't done is buying snacks. I'll do it tomorrow I guess. There's an 24hours Indomaret near school.

I'll see ya tomorrow then, fellas!

Excited for the one day out of school,

"WHOOP WHOOP" ;)

What the.....?!

God, this bike thingy. It's making me crazy!
Who would thing that I will be jealous over a....... BIKE?!
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!
It's not even alive. I mean, COME ON TRISSI! GET REAL! GET SOME FRESH AIR!

I know. Stupid. Haha.
It's just, I think he's loosing his interest in me. Suddenly the bike is just the one thing that fills his brain. Geez, I better get something to do before this bike thing starts to get worse. It's creeping me out. Really.