Help, anyone?

Ever since high school started things just gone from almost perfect to totally ruined. I don't know, I feel like there's nothing right anymore. Seems like I can't do anything right. Things just got worse and worse than before.
I thought this year would be the best year of high school, I thought the bad things were already left behind. Well, I thought wrong.
I'm not enjoying life. I got nothing to be proud on. I feel like I'm nobody. I'm starting to lose hope and faith.
Is there anyone who can help me?

Light bulb!

Having an idea about what to give to him on val's day. The thing is, I'm not sure if I would have enough time to do it. All of these homeworks and tests and projects are killing me slowly. Plus my laziness decides to increase its level. Oh my my.

To do list

I really need to STOP procrastinating!
I really need to FOCUS
I really need to STOP having negative thoughts
I really need to WORK HARDER

I really need to STOP writing about things
I really need to DO these things.

Lets start

Gotta learn to let things go.

How I roll

I am gaining weight and I'm freaking out!
Need. to. start. working. out.
My uniforms barely fit me now, especially those freaking skirts. I can't place them in the right place because my belly is HUGE. okay so not huge, but it's way over the limit.
You may think that I'm overreacting, it's fine. But I need my body in the right size. Since I'm not tall, I feel like I have to maintain my body in the right shape. I cannot go out and feel confident about myself if I know that my belly, my arms, and my tights are off their limit. Confidence people! I need those things to be smaller and flatter in order to gain my confidence.
Hey, this is just how I roll. Got a problem? Don't even bother reading this, kay? ;)

New

Wow, 2012 already. Don't you think time flies in full speed?
Anyway, happy new year everyone!
Though 2011 has been my favourite year so far (obviously because I got the best sweet seventeen birthday date ever on that year (re: 11 november 2011)) I still hope 2012 will be a much more better year.
So, I've think of a few new year resolutions and I thought it would be better if I write them down in here.

1. Earn my own money
2. Flatten my belly, and lighten my skin
3. Get into the top 5 in my class
4. Be more organized, discipline, and persistance
5. Be less careless
6. Get my ears pierced

Hmm come to think of it, this is weird. This afternoon I've thought about so many resolutions but right now, I'm facing the laptop screen and my fingers are all on the keyboard, ready to type everything down, my mind goes blank. The heck is wrong with my brain :/

Okay so, there we go, my not-so-many-new-year-resolutions. I'm thinking of writing it down in a piece of paper then stick it on my bedroom wall.

Hm, what more should I say? I think that's all for now.

Happy January 1, 2012, loves!

Pattern

I'm currently listening to this song called London(foolishly) by Nick Jonas, my all time favorite singer and musician. I have been listening to this song for the last couple hours now, I've repeated it over and over and over again and somehow at one point I cried over this song while I was singing along. Thinking that the words are nearly the same with what I'm feeling right now. Almost. Well, I don't get the overall meaning of the song but If I look at the sentences, there are some of them that are very similiar to my condition. So, yeah.

Another foggy night in london town
All the dreamers are asleep
No one understands what I have found
No, not even me

Foolishly I fall
To the obvious pattern of it all
Carelessly I stall
Thinking change was just a friend that never called
Tragedies I write
When it means we count the blessings in our life

Could it be that I now stand corrected?
Could it be that I now stand affected by this blinding light?
Blinding light...

Big ben breathing down my neck again
I feel my time is running out
And all this baggage that I'm carrying
It's time to lay it down

A cup of tea out on my own tonight
Now I'm changing by this blinding light
Yeah...