Yeahright

I know, I have changed. A lot.
I'm all gloomy and easily upset. I know.
I'm blaming the world because it's being unfair. When actualy it's never fair.
I'm starting to close my heart. Only because I don't want to get anymore heartbreak.
I'm blaming others, when It's actually myself is the one to be blamed on.
I'm turning into an evil. Haha. Yeahright.
Negative thoughts are all over me and it's contorolling me.

You know, I have tried.
To be what I called the old me.
But everytime I tried, something got a hold on me.
I couldn't even finish trying.

I'm helpless. I'm hopeless. I'm restless.
Sometimes I wonder... What's the meaning of life if it keeps on going this way?
Okay stop. I'm turning into an emo girl who wants to do a suicide. Oh hell suicide.

Bring me back the old times :|

It's just getting worst and worst

I may be not the bestest of friend but hey, i do deserve a better respect, don't I?
I did everything I could to help you and this is what you give me in return?
Don't you realize you took almost.... EVERYTHING? Literally almost everything.
I don't mean to hate you or things like that but I couldn't help being nice if you keep on messing with the life that I've been living for these 16 years.

I'm sorry, buddy.

The movie thingy

bytheway.....

I miss our movie-after-exam tradition thingy. Because apparently, we don't have it here in high s(ucks)chool.

Could we do that again, some other time... maybe?

1st day of the last month

1st day of december = last day of semester exam! Ahaaa you can't believe how happy i am. Finally.... I AM FREE! Okay, not quite. I'm still worried about the remedials. Sundanesse and religion! Huh hah I hope I get enough score to pass on that two subject. I feel so dumb. Usually I don't get very nervous about that two subjects but unexpectedly the teachers have been increasing the difficulty level or.... is it me who didn't study? Kidding. Sure I studied, but not seriously :p

Well, let's just hope and pray!
Huh hah bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Welcoming the holiday with an open heart ;)