Kamis, 09 Februari 2012

Would a psychologist be too much?

This might be another post that contains a negative atmosphere.

Sometimes I often feel like I have nothing to be proud of, like I can't totally be good at something, like everything I do everyone does it better than me. And I got to the point where I sank to the deepest of despairs. I actually talked about this with Adam a few days ago but I didn't quite poor it all out because I was afraid my tears would just drop. Well I can't cry in the public, uhm I actually can but who wants to see my horrible crying face. Oh sorry out of topic.
I think I need a psychologist, It might sound kind of over the top, but with the situation I have now, the very quick change of emotions and all, I think I at least need just one appointment with a psychologist, just to talk and pour my heart out and maybe get a solution on how to deal with the life i got now. Because I'm telling you honestly, it's tiring. Everyday I wish the weekend would come faster and last forever.

Goodnight from the tired high school girl who still hasn't found the 'fun' in high school. yet.

Senin, 06 Februari 2012

Help, anyone?

Ever since high school started things just gone from almost perfect to totally ruined. I don't know, I feel like there's nothing right anymore. Seems like I can't do anything right. Things just got worse and worse than before.
I thought this year would be the best year of high school, I thought the bad things were already left behind. Well, I thought wrong.
I'm not enjoying life. I got nothing to be proud on. I feel like I'm nobody. I'm starting to lose hope and faith.
Is there anyone who can help me?

Light bulb!

Having an idea about what to give to him on val's day. The thing is, I'm not sure if I would have enough time to do it. All of these homeworks and tests and projects are killing me slowly. Plus my laziness decides to increase its level. Oh my my.

Rabu, 01 Februari 2012

To do list

I really need to STOP procrastinating!
I really need to FOCUS
I really need to STOP having negative thoughts
I really need to WORK HARDER

I really need to STOP writing about things
I really need to DO these things.