Crying all the way

Capek. Nggak suka.

Gue capek nangis setiap saat. Gue capek ngeliat air mata gue sendiri keluar. Gue capek liat muka gue yang selalu kusut. Gue capek liat mata gua yang sembap abis nangis. Gue capek liat idung gue merah tiap kali abis nangis. Gue capek khawatir. Gue capek, fisik, mental, GUE CAPEK!

Gue nggak suka disalahin. Gue nggak suka disuruh suruh. Gue nggak suka dipaksa. Gue nggak suka dibenci. Gue nggak suka perpisahan. Gue nggak suka ngerasa khawatir terus terusan. Gue nggak suka ngerasa tertekan. Gue nggak suka, samasekali NGGAK SUKA!

'Everybody wants to live happily ever after'

So do I. I'm tired of all these shit things. I'm tired of being told that I'm an 'I don't care' type of person when actually I DO CARE. I just don't know how to show people that I'm care. I'm scared that people will hate me for what am I doing, I'm afraid of being wrong. I don't like being hated. I'm tired of keeping my feelings for my own. I can't speak up, I'm afraid of the reaction that I 'll get when I speak up. I'm tired of being way to care about something, somehow I wanna act like my friends. they don't really care what's wrong. They live life, they don't really worry, they HAVE FUN, while I keep on regreting things I've done.

I'M TIRED! And what did I do? Yes, I'm CRYING, Which makes me more tired than ever. Whatta stupid little girl.

:'(