Before the storm

I know this isn't what I wanted

Never thought it'd come this far

Just thinking back to where we started

And how we lost all that we are

We were young and times were easy

But I can see it's not the same

I'm Standing here but you don't see me

I'd give it all for that to change

And I don't want to lose her

Don't wanna let her go

Standing out in the rain

I need to knkow if its over

Cause I will leave you alone

Flooded with all tthis pain

Knowing that I'll never hold her

Like I did before the storm

And with every strike of lighting

Comes a memory that last

Not a word is left unspoken

As the thunder starts to crash

Maybe I should give up

Trying to keep the light from going in

And the clouds from ripping out my broken heart

We always say a heart is not a whole

Without the one who gets you through the storm

Standing out it the rain

Knowing that is really over

Please don't leave me alone

Flooded with all this pain

Knowing that I'll never hold you

Like I did before the storm

This song was performed by Nick and Miley. I love but I also hate this song. It's kinda remembering me about him. Oh God, how I miss him soooooo much. Well yeah stupid me from breaking up with him, but what else should I do? Better if I try to forget it.

Well I just gonna say this because I don't know why this missing syndrome's suddenly coming. Ugh I hate being like this. I hate this situation. Oh how I miss the time when everything was alright :(

Happy 1st birthday, Bloggie :)

Hey baby!
Lol I don't know why but I love saying 'baby' a lot these past few weeks.
Soooooo i just remembered that today is 23th of July. You know what that means? YES! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PRECIOUS BLOG! It has been one year since I made this blog. Oh I'm so happy. I'm freakig in love with my blog. Ergh I think I'm gonna change the blogskin if i have time, remind me okay? And I wanna thank you guys for reading this blog the whooooole year. Without you this blog's nothing hehe. Em okay, I also wanna say I'm so sorry for the very seldom posting lately. I'm kinda busy with school stuffs and as you know, I'M A 9TH GRADER NOW. Meaning? Yeah I have to decrease the internet surfing time and increase the study time. Don't wanna mess up with my UN results, right?

Okay, so I wanna tell you about today.
Well as usual I set the alarm into 5 o'clock ringing. I DID wake up but just to turned off the alarm, then I SLEPT again. Yey, smart me! But finally, at 5.30 I totally woke up. Then took a bath, dressed, ate breakfast and stuffs then off to school. Wow yeah I knew this was gonna be a great day since I saw Koyo in the Lobby lol I'm so freaking crazy about him :p
I'm doing good at school so far, I decided to go home at around 4 cause there was nothing more to do. I rested for awhile then went to Intermedia to buy a clear holder for the UN preparation session like Mr. Tums told us and a pack of folio paper. Guess what? I met Kak Mody there! You know Kak mody right? Yes she was my senior at Global Prestasi JHS, but she has graduated, now she's going to 71 SHS.
Got home from intermedia and decided to do my math homework. Dwima called and we did the homework together. What I hate is that He's getting smart all of the sudden ugh what's wrong with you, baby? Lol hahaha kidding xp
Finished all of my homework and here I am writing down my day in this lovely. Wow I just miss sharing with all of you :)

Where does it go?

I feel empty
I feel none
I feel nothing

What the hell is wrong with me?
With my heart?
Where does the love go?
The love that supposed to be yours?

Sorry, dear...

Do you care enough?

If you ask me,
It's not about how many times you say 'i love you'
Or,
How many times you say 'i miss you'
It's about,
How do you show that you really do care

For me...

I still have

I don't know why
But I still have this feeling
I don't even know you
But I still have this love
I don't want to say this
But the truth is; I really miss you

So much...

A single smile for a bright tomorrow :)

Yesterday,
He just walked right trough me
Today,
he stared at me just a bit too long
Tomorrow,
A single smile would mean so much

Hope so...

Last day of MOS ; Pingsan spektakuler

Hey kamu kamu kamu lama tak berjumpa ya kita. Apakabar semua? Gue? Been better, Allhamdulillah.

Eh lo tauga sih masa gue baru sembuh sakit. Oke belum total tapi at least gue udah bisa bertingkah di sekolah. Tapi nyesek banget tauga sih gabisa ngerasain hari pertama sekolah huuhuhu. Apalagi kalo itu terjadi gara gara sakit gapenting idih pengen muter balik waktu rasanya.

Jadi ceritanya tuh last day of mos gue menjalankan misi pingsan spektakuler gitu di bis dan sukses saudara! Satu bis berisi hem katanya Nchaa sih 40 orang lebih dengan suka rela nganterin gue ke UGD rs Global Awal Bross ituloh yang di kali malang. Keren ya gue hahaha. Astaga bangga. Eh gadeng boong emang gue sebelum ngemos hari itu udah feeling not good gitu tapi gue tetep ikutan abis kan gue pengen ngemos terus pengen ketemu si ganteng wakakak :3 Eh tapi akhirna malah klepek klepek dah tai bet sih ya.

Tapi masuk masuk gue maluuuuuu. Masa tiap ketemu guru, 'Eh Trissi, udah sembuh? Sakit apa kemaren?' 'Eh Trissi udah masuk jangan capek capek dulu ya Triss' 'Trissi udah masuk waaah sakit apa kemaren' 'Waaah Trissi akhirnya masuk juga, udah sembuh Triss?' Gue cuman bisa senyum senyum meringis gajelas gitu sambil ngangguk ngangguk 'Hehehe iya sir, hehehe iya miss, sakit ya itulah miss'. Eits tapi itu masih mending ada lagi tuh pelajarannya Miss Diana ya masa kan lagi ditunjuk gitu satu satu suruh berdiri terus ditanyain eh tiba tiba Miss Diana nunjuk gue terus nanya,

Miss D: Trissi kan?
Gue: Iya Miss
Miss D: Udah sembuh?
Gue: Udah Miss
Miss D: Kalo saya suruh jawab pertanyaan gapingsan lagi kan?

ASTAGFIRULLAH SAYA MALU SAUDARA! Gila ih gue cuma bisa mesem mesem doang sambil cengengesan astaga banget itu si Miss. Beneran dah yak pingsan gua spektakuler abis sampe adek adek kelas gue tuh yang gue MOS in kemaren nanya, gimana kak trissi udah sembuh? Kak Trissi sakit apa sih kemaren? Kak Trissi kemaren kenapa sih? Aduh aku terharu adik adik terimakasih ya :p Oh iya sama si Miss Liertji juga tuh masa ngebahas bahas waktu upacara elaaah Miss bikin tambah malu aja sih untung kagak nyebut nama.

Oh iya, have i told you what class am i in now? Belom ya oh iya sampe lupa kan gue. Oke jadi setelah melepaskan keanggotaan gue dari 8A ku terinta gue sekarang resmi jadi penghuni 9B huahuahauhha mantan kelasnya Bebi looooh fufufu <3 Okey enough, gue sekelas sama si Ellen Oris Chacha Eno Adam Dwima Nyoman Nevy Icha Ayu Rizky Gori Riam Bella dan lain sebagainya dengan Miss Nita sebagai homeroomnya. Hahaha Miss ketemu lagi kita :D Udah deh ya gue udah males ntar kali ya besok mungkin gue lanjutin lagi. Oh iya lupa eh doain dong adek gua masuk rumas sakit masa db dia. Lagian sih banyak tingkah pake ikutan gue sakit segala hahaha eh gadeng yaAllah gagitu lah. Pokoknya doain aja deh ya biar dia cepet sembuh idih gue kesepian gitu di rumah gaada dia lagian si Ami sibuk dengan dunianya sendiri gitu. Sip si thanks doanya. Dadaaah semuaaaaanya :)